As snow falls again tonight, it is the first time since the week before my daughter was born that I am in London with thick snow on the ground. I look at the snow tonight with my almost 3 year old daughter and watch the magic she feels by seeing this amazing white icing type snow falling from the sky.
It looks like sparklies on the floor mommy ... Please open the door and the windows mom - let it come in side - so innocent and so sweet! As she stands by the window looking up at the snow dancing around the light like little tiny dandelions - she blinks and says - Mommy the snow is getting in my eyes (windows and doors closed and we are inside ). How magical snow must seem to little ones. Snow balls and snow men, sparkly and twinkly white magic...
|Michaela Week 1 - Her first little Yawn (not scream)|
|Chiswick Feb 2009|
I remember wanting to use cloth nappies ( blah blah - all good intentions) I remember reading all these baby books and saying the baby will fit into our lives and not us into the babies life ( oh how the mighty have fallen !! ). I remember thinking my child will be like this and I will be like that and this is how it we will do things - all by the book. I remember thinking we have this all so well prepared planned out !!! I've done my home work - bring it on !!! Until the day my beautiful little girl (who I thought was going to be a boy ) was born. I expected a blonde haired chubby little boy and instead we received a wonderful petite little black haired , doll like baby girl. hhhhmmmm???? And now ??? All the books and plans just went out the window!!!
|Michaela's first photo - few seconds old...|
Michaela was born with the cord around her neck 5 times ( I remember hearing the midwife unravel her cord really fast before she passed her to me) and weighed all of 3kg ( nice weight for a girl).
That was the day everything changed in my life - I went from having to only think of myself - to being souly committed to caring for someone else no matter what the cost... She changed my whole world - she didn't fit into our lives - we had to fit into hers, we never used cloth nappies, and the book went out the window on week 2.
|Very happy tired mom - Michaela a few hours hold - still in hospital|
|Daddy and his little girl .... Michaela's first encounter with Dad! Love at first sight these two!!|
She was only minutes old...
So much for them being in her own bed (as the good books said) - I promptly took her out of the cot and put her in my bed and thats where she stayed for the next 9 months... It was that moment from taking her out that poky cot to putting her into my bed next to me that I decided and realised i would give my life for this little creature and we would fit our whole world around this little being and not her around us ...
Its true what they say - you really cant prepare yourself for child , you just have to experience them and what an experience parent hood is !!!
So now when I look at snow I always think how my children have fallen into my life and have changed it and covered it with so much beautiful joy & pain - but my love for snow and the magical feeling it evokes in me - doesn't come near the love and excitement I feel towards my children. Just like snow they are beautiful but they have their painful slippery spots but ultimately they are a work of God and my little miracles ... You see I was told I wouldn't have children by my doctors so they truly are my little magical miracles !
|Our snow man|
|Our little Michaela - so big now - not so little any more...|
Michaela very happy with her snow man - she checked on him every day till he went "home".
To live with the polar bear and penguins apparently?